My daughter started school full time this Fall. I left my job three years ago, to be a stay at home mom. I do not regret my decision for a minute. When I went to the parent teacher conferences last week, I was so happy to hear good reports. After three years, my kids are doing well. I thanked God for answering my prayers and giving me this time to spend with my children. I am so thankful that God answers prayers and gives me peace in my mind.
Lately, I have been wondering about my purpose. Should I go back to work part-time or full-time? Stay home with my kids? Volunteer more? I felt like I should get a part-time job. Today, in bible study, I read this verse that seemed to be screaming at me.
“As they ministered to the Lord and fasted, the Holy Spirit said, “Now separate to Me Barnabus and Saul for the work to which I have called them.”
— Acts 13:2 (NKJV)
I read this verse and thought that I would need to listen to God telling me my purpose. Maybe, God would make my career path clear and point me to the right job and life would be perfect. At the bible study, one of the women said that sometimes God is calling us to do something that we think we cannot. God may want us to take a leap and do it by fully relying on God to fill us with the Holy Spirit and give us strength, courage and wisdom. This sounds scary. I just want to be in my comfortable, introverted world.
My prayers need to change from praying for a part-time job to praying that God shows me his will for me. Perhaps, its not a part-time job. I don’t know what God’s will for me is, but I know that all things are possible with God. I have to be open to God’s plans for me and trust in God.
Jesus looked at them and said, “With man this is impossible, but with God all things are possible.”
–Matthew 19:26 (NKJV)