This morning, I woke up feeling off. I remind myself that I am not the only one. There are famous people who seem to have everything, yet they are still not happy. I opened the bible to the Psalm passages today. After reading these passages, I feel energized and inspired.
God made me and formed me. If God took the time to make me and create me, I have worth to the almighty one. God would not spend his time on something worthless. I have value. God gave me understanding, so I could learn his laws. God gave us laws and commandments, so we can be happy. Reading scriptures in the bible fills my mind with peace. I am at ease when I spend time reading God’s word. The bible is the best self-help, self-care book out there.
Your hands made me and formed me;
give me understanding to learn your commands.
–Psalm 119:73 (NIV)
When I read the bible, I read God’s words. I pray that God will teach me knowledge and good judgement in my life. God’s laws are good, and I put my trust in God’s commands. In the past, I didn’t know God as I do now. I had a very difficult time in my life. Within 3 months, my husband lost his job, I had a difficult surgery, and my dad died. My children were 2 and 4 years old at the time. I was overwhelmed with stress and sadness. I started reading the bible. I would pray and ask God questions and open the bible to read his answers. God told me that is would be ok. I didn’t know how it could possibly be ok, but I chose to hang in there and trust in God. I was afflicted with stressful, unbearable things happening around me and to me, that I could not control. Everything was crumbing around me, and all I could hang onto was God’s promise that it was going to be ok.
Teach me knowledge and good judgment,
for I trust your commands.
Before I was afflicted I went astray,
but now I obey your word.
–Psalm 119:66-67 (NIV)
After 7 months of unemployment, my husband got a job. We sold our house, moved to a great new neighborhood and bought a new house. I became a stay-at-home mom. I now obey God’s word. I try to read the bible everyday. God is good. God did so many wonderful things in our lives. Four years later, it is still painful to remember those unbearable 7 months. I am glad that we fought through those times. It was good that we were afflicted, so we could learn God’s laws. Going through such a difficult time, taught me to let go of control and rely on God. Everything we had planned disintegrated. Instead, we prayed and followed God’s plans for us. God’s plans were so much better than what we thought we wanted. God took care of every detail and gave us everything we needed.
You are good, and what you do is good;
teach me your decrees.
Though the arrogant have smeared me with lies,
I keep your precepts with all my heart.
Their hearts are callous and unfeeling,
but I delight in your law.
It was good for me to be afflicted
so that I might learn your decrees.
The law from your mouth is more precious to me
than thousands of pieces of silver and gold.
–Psalm 119:68-72 (NIV)
When we went through the difficult times, we knew there were people who wanted us to fail. We could feel the weight of their lies hanging in the air like lingering smoke and see the smirks on their faces, when we saw them. Their hearts were callous and unfeeling. I am happy that God cared enough about me and my family to bring us through and draw us closer to him. I am delighted to go to church and follow God’s laws. God’s laws are priceless, more precious than thousands of pieces of silver and gold. The peace that I get from following Gods laws is worth more than anything money can buy.