I try and follow God’s commands, but I have so much room for improvement. I always struggle with fear, as well as other sins. I know that I should let go and trust in God, but my mind wonders around and considers all the possibilities. I worry about my husband, my kids, and myself. Fear is a sin. What do you struggle with? Being selfish? Debt? Pride? Gossip? Judgement?
In the morning, I read the bible, so I can start my day in God’s words. God wants me to seek him with all my heart, so I do not stray from his commands. I need to take God’s words and have them close to my heart. I should be seeking God so much that the words are a part of me, so I do not sin against God. I should praise God and seek his laws.
I seek you with all my heart;
do not let me stray from your commands.
I have hidden your word in my heart
that I might not sin against you.
Praise be to you, Lord;
teach me your decrees.
–Psalm 119:10-12 (NIV)
I read the bible every morning. I am not sure if I am seeking God with all my heart each day. I turn off the radio, and I sit in silence. This helps my mind fully focus on God and the words he wants me to read each day. I wonder if my heart is fully present each morning. Sometimes, I am all there. What is holding me back other days? Do I feel guilty about something I have done? Is my heart feeling heavy from being selfish, gossiping, worrying or judging others and myself? Probably. Sin weighs us down. When sin is weighing on me, I need God even more. I need to read God’s words, meditate on them and hold them close to my heart. I want to follow God’s ways. My heart has to be free and ready to learn. Then, I can hide God’s word in my heart.
Forgive me for all my sins. Take these burdens from me, so I can seek you with my whole heart. God, help me to take your words and nestle them in my heart, so I do not sin against you. Praise you, Lord! You are always good. Teach me your decrees.