This morning, I was a spiritual mess. My kids woke me up at 4:15 am (I know the early risers don’t feel bad for me), and I didn’t really sleep until the alarm went off at 6:15 am. I felt like Satan was shooting darts at me, because doubts, fears, reminders from past failures were going through my mind at rapid speeds. I kept reminding myself that I am worth it. This is my life. God gave me this life, and I need to embrace it. So I exercised, had breakfast, took a shower and was only 5 minutes late to the bible study. Its hard to remember in the midst of the attacks that God must have some really good stuff for me today, if Satan is trying so hard to block my way to it.
Now, I know why Satan was working so hard to keep me away for the women’s bible study this morning. The singing brought tears to my eyes. I thought that I was going to start sobbing, but I kept it together. We read 1 Corinthians:1-4. Two of the verses that spoke to me were 1 Corinthians 2:9-10.
But as it is written:
“Eye has not seen, nor ear heard,
Nor have entered into the heart of man
The things which God has prepared for those who love Him.”
But God has revealed them to us through His Spirit. For the Spirit searches all things, yes, the deep things of God.
–1 Corinthians 2:9-10 (NKJV)
I was mesmerized by these verses. I asked for more information on them during our small group meeting. The leader was so insightful and she quoted verses all over the bible. It was a blessing to be in such a wonderful, understanding, supportive group of women. Christians that seek God will gain greater insights and understanding. God reveals things to us through the Holy Spirit, who searches through all the deep things that God wants us to know. Have you ever heard that saying, “You don’t know, what you don’t know”? As I read the bible and draw closer to God, I learn so many new things. I had no idea these things existed, and I certainly didn’t know that I needed these things in my life. When I surrender to God, he reveals deep and hidden things to me. Sometimes, I read the same passages over and over, until I say God, I don’t get what you want me to see here. So, I go back, read it again and underline the passages that stand out to me. Then, I read them, and I get insight. Sometimes, I don’t even get the insight, until later. Its like God is writing the words on my heart and preparing me for when I will need them. Its like when I pack me kids’ lunch boxes. When they are hungry, they will be happy to have lunch and eat the food in them. Its all about surrendering my heart to God, for the little things and big things. I don’t always know why, but when I need it, its there. God gave me the answer to a problem that I didn’t anticipate or know that I had. God prepares us for what we don’t know yet. How amazing is our God?