I love my kids. I prayed to have each of them. I left my career 4 years ago to become a stay-at-home mom for my kids. I felt like they needed me here. We moved to a new state, and my son was about to start kindergarten, which was half-day at the time. My daughter was going to start preschool, which was only a few hours two days a week. So instead of figuring out how to find a nanny or put them in daycare, while my husband and I were both 2 hours away at work, I was happy to stay at home with them. I had always wanted to stay with them. I used to cry everyday, when I had to put my son in daycare. My daughter never went to daycare, because we arranged our schedules, and I worked part-time from home. That was great, until my husband’s contract was not renewed. My husband did not have a job for 7 months, while I worked. Financially, being the sole earner just wasn’t working for our family. When my husband started a new job, we moved to Virginia, and we decided that it was the right time for me to stay at home with the kids. It was time to try something new, because the old way was no longer an option. My husband would leave at 6 a.m. and return home at 7 p.m. each day. It was the only decision for us at the time. Even though everyone thought we were crazy, it was an answer to our prayers.
I love being a stay-at-home mom, but not every day is easy. Sometimes, I get lonely. I can get frustrated that my kids don’t listen. I worry about them and the choices they make. I pray for my kids often. Yesterday, during my bible study small group, the leader said a few things that I carried in my heart. She said to try and live your life according to scriptures and set a good example. That is hard. Do I always speak in a Godly way? I really have to take a hard look at myself, list ways to improve myself and work hard on trying to do God’s will.
She said to pray for wisdom, when you are frustrated, running out of patience or don’t know what to say. When my child is standing there yelling for what seems like no reason. I have to take deep breaths and pray that God gives my wisdom. When I hear yelling, I want to turn around and walk away. It is hard to stand there, with my head throbbing from the yelling, and calmly remain silent and pray for wisdom. But, I did it this morning, and I can do it again.
My bible study leader also said that we can pray that our kids have the mind of Christ. I said that prayer this morning too. I prayed for wisdom for myself and that my child would have the mind of Christ. It worked, and we successfully made it through the morning.
For “who has known the mind of the Lord that he may instruct Him?” But we have the mind of Christ.
–1 Corinthians 2:16 (NKJV)
Sometimes, its hard to remember to pray, when you are caught up in the moments of life. For the past two nights, my son has woken up at 4 a.m., because he is coming down with a cold. We are all very tired. I was better yesterday, but I feel very tired today. Do you know that feeling? I feel worn down. I have happy day dreams about curling up on he couch with a blanket and taking a nap. When I am feeling tired and run down, its easy to forget to pray and seek God in the challenging moments of life. But, its easier when I do seek God. Everything is easier when God is helping you through it. Pray for yourself. Pray for your kids. God’s always faithful and will you get through everything, one moment at a time.