My mom’s surgery is tomorrow.
My kids start school again tomorrow. I was distracted today with back to school preparations. I *almost* didn’t think about the surgery tomorrow. It is in the back of my mind, lingering. Thoughts about the surgery invade my thoughts, as I try to push the thoughts back again.
My kids ask if Mimi will be all better after surgery. I have to tell the truth. I tell them, no, Mimi will never be the same again. They nod solemnly and say ok.
I don’t know what will happen tomorrow. I do know that our feelings of worry and concern will one day turn to smiles and joy. “Blessed are you who weep now, for you will laugh.” God’s will is greater than my own. God knows the outcome of tomorrow’s surgery. I will wait and pray. God will comfort me and help me through this difficult time. No matter what happens, life will never be the same. I will have to learn to accept my mom’s diagnosis and enjoy every moment with her.
Looking at his disciples, [Jesus] said:
“Blessed are you who are poor,
for yours is the kingdom of God.
Blessed are you who hunger now,
for you will be satisfied.
Blessed are you who weep now,
for you will laugh.
–Luke 6:20-21 (NIV)
God, I pray that you help me and my family through the painful wait during surgery. What will the outcome be? What will happen? God only knows the outcome. I trust God will carry me through the process and guide me. Praying that most of all, my mom has peace with the outcome.