Seven years ago, I was in a different place. I lived in another state. I went to church and thought that I was faithful. I had a job and worked part time. My kids were so little, 2 and 4 years old. I had no idea what was going to happen. It would make me or break me.
Seven years ago, we had our house on the market for sale, and it didn’t sell, so we took it off the market. My daughter had recovered from RSV. My dad was on chemotherapy for cancer. Then, my husband’s contract ended, and he was suddenly unemployed. We thought that he would get another job right away, but that didn’t happen either. I was so stressed out. It felt unbearable. One night I had a dream that felt so real. I still remember it so clearly. Two hands laid on the top of my head and a voice said, “It is going to be ok.” I saw my daughter and I walking around a house and looking out the windows and heard my husband and son in the background asking what we thought about the house. I felt the strength of the promise and believed it. I woke up immediately and popped up and asked my husband, if he touched my head. He was sleeping and said no that he was asleep.
My heart held tightly onto that promise for the next 7 months. I had an emergency surgery. My dad died on Christmas Eve. We prayed for the right real estate agent and sold our house. My husband got a new job 7 months later, and we bought that house in my dream. It was one of the most impactful times of my life. I had to make the choice to let go of what I saw, which looked bleak, or hold onto God’s promise that I could not see. Some days, my faith was as small as a mustard seed.
Let those who fear the Lord now say,
“His mercy endures forever.”
I called on the Lord in distress;
The Lord answered me and set me in a broad place.
The Lord is on my side;
I will not fear.
What can man do to me?
The Lord is for me among those who help me;
Therefore I shall see my desire on those who hate me.
It is better to trust in the Lord
Than to put confidence in man.
—Psalm 118: 4-8 NKJV
I felt like neighbors were chuckling behind my back. I worked at the same place as my husband, so I had to go into work and see the people that ended his employment. It was a lesson in humility. Some family members prayed for us and others stayed away us, afraid that we may ask them for something, which we never would.
As those around me, waited for my family to fail, God had other plans.
God always comes through. God can carry you through the worst situations, if you only trust in him. But, you have to let go of the world. You have to no longer care about what others say, and just focus on the Lord. That is hard, but gets easier with practice. If you truly believe in God, you will never fit into the world.
You pushed me violently, that I might fall,
But the Lord helped me.
The Lord is my strength and song,
And He has become my salvation.
—Psalm 118: 13-14 NKJV
God brought us to a new state and a new house. God gave us everything that we needed and took care of our future needs. God gave us a new church, that has strengthened our faith and knowledge every week by reading through the bible from cover to cover. God restored my husband’s career and gave me a new path as a stay at home mom, and now a homeschooling mom.
God takes you where you are at and invites you to follow him. God has so many blessings for us, if we only untangle ourselves form the world to accept them.
I will praise You,
For You have answered me,
And have become my salvation.
The stone which the builders rejected
Has become the chief cornerstone.
This was the Lord’s doing;
It is marvelous in our eyes.
This is the day the Lord has made;
We will rejoice and be glad in it.
Save now, I pray, O Lord;
O Lord, I pray, send now prosperity.
Blessed is he who comes in the name of the Lord!
We have blessed you from the house of the Lord.
God is the Lord,
And He has given us light;
Bind the sacrifice with cords to the horns of the altar.
You are my God, and I will praise You;
You are my God, I will exalt You.
Oh, give thanks to the Lord, for He is good!
For His mercy endures forever.
—Psalm 118:21-29 NKJV
God can use your difficult times as a testimony to his faithfulness. Praise God and give him thanks for all that he has done for us. God’s mercy endures forever.