Have you ever made a mistake? Do you keep making the same one over and over? I think everyone struggles with something. For some people, its not easy to tell what their struggles are. Their lives look perfect on the outside. They may have internal struggles. I make mistakes all the time, and I have plenty of struggles. I have to seek the Lord on a daily basis. Some days, I really have to pray often. God tells us in the bible that we will have to seek the Lord, until he reigns righteousness on us.
For it is time to seek the Lord,
Till He comes and rains righteousness on you.
–Hosea 10:12 (NKJV)
I have anxiety, and I worry too much. I have to pray it away. Each morning, I read the bible to see what God wants me to hear that day. That is not even enough most days. I still struggle and have to pray again later in the day.
Sometimes, I know that I am going to go into a difficult situation. I start praying about it weeks before it happens. When I finally have to face the difficult situation, I feel confident. I have brought all my concerns to God. I have prayed for God to protect me and guide my thoughts, words and actions. I am ready. God has always come through for me. I just have to ask God to guide me.
I am human. I get angry. The root of my anger is always hurt and pain. Have you ever been hurt so badly that you cry out ‘Why would he/she do this to me?’ You are so hurt that you became angry. There are so many times that I have been hurt. One of the most painful experiences of my life was having 3 miscarriages. I cannot even begin to tell you the depths of sorrow that I felt after the third miscarriage. It brought me to God. I asked the church to pray for me, and God gave me a son, and then a daughter. As much as I felt sorrow, these two kids are the greatest joys of my life. I would do anything for them. I would love to live a long, happy life and live close to them.
We hurt God when we sin. God, wants to bless us, but we are too busy messing up and making mistakes. God is the Holy One. God will not reign terror down upon us. God will forgive us, even when he is angry at us. Humans get angry and full of rage. God is the Holy One, even though he can rein terror upon us, he doesn’t.
I am God, and not man,
The Holy One in your midst;
And I will not come with terror.
–Hosea 11:9 (NKJV)
I wonder what God thinks when he looks down at us. All our actions are telling God that we know better than God. Abortions, even up to birth. We are telling God that we can kill our own children. Some people tell their kids that they can pick their own gender. You cannot pick your own gender. It is predetermined by God. You are born male or female. God made it this way. Don’t get mad at me. Get mad at God. He will love you no matter what choices you make. You can have surgeries and try to change it, but you fighting what God made. God made you perfectly. God is the father that never leaves us. We can do our worst. God will still reach out his hand to us and give our hearts peace. You know that thing that is missing your life? You cannot name it, but you do not feel complete? You are always seeking it, trying to figure out how to make your life whole. It is not money. It is not clothes. It is not having all the newest things. It is not being famous. It is not being popular. It is God. The missing piece is God. Seek God and make your life complete. No matter what we do, God will forgive us.