I went to see my mom yesterday. My kids got off the bus, had a snack, and we drove up to Baltimore to see my mom. It was quite a drive. It took over 3 hours to get there. We took detours through the park, on winding roads. We drove through neighborhoods with boarded up houses. We drove on roads that had not been paved in a very long time. It felt like a dirt road or roller coaster, only with no amusement.
When we arrived at the hospital, I felt queasy and exhausted. I guess this is a statement on how life sometimes goes. We keep going and going and never seem to get where we want to go. The journey feels too long. It takes longer than we think, to get where we want to go. There are twists and turns. There are bumps in the road. Somehow, when we get there, its not what we expected. My sister and aunt were there, and left when I arrived. My mom was exhausted and fought off sleep. I told her to sleep and rest.
Sometimes, the journey isn’t what we expected. Everyone seems to get there faster, with less struggle. My journey is my own. God has a path for each of us. I know that as long as I follow God, I am on the right path. I know this because, I used to listen to everyone else and try everything on my own. I wasn’t happy, and it did not go well. I was always searching and never quite finding what would fill the void. Without God, nobody can really find happiness. You can fill your life with being busy, but it will never compare to the peace found from God.
God knows where we are at right now. God is watching over us. God will bring us home. God will build us up and never tear us down. This is important to remember as others make fun of me, snicker at me behind my back, when they think I am are not looking, and laugh at my expense. I can ignore them, because God is with me. God sees them, and God is not laughing. God will plant us and not uproot us. Once God plants us, God will make us blossom and grow. God will give us a heart to know him. We will know God and call him Lord. God wants our hearts. In return, God will be like a protective father, watching over us.
My eyes will watch over them for their good, and I will bring them back to this land. I will build them up and not tear them down; I will plant them and not uproot them. I will give them a heart to know me, that I am the Lord. They will be my people, and I will be their God, for they will return to me with all their heart.
–Jeremiah 24:6-7 (NIV)
I opened this passage about five times today. I was getting annoyed, because I did not understand the message. Then, finally, tonight, I got it. God will fulfill his promise. God planted us in our home four years ago. We are the impatient ones. We feel like its not happening fast enough. God’s timing is perfect. I choose to wait on God.
My mom is doing great, but she has a fatal cancer. I do not want to admit that she will not be here forever. I still want my mom. If I lose her, I have lost both my parents. I will be like an orphan. Only, I will never be like an orphan. God is there for me. God is watching over me. When my dad died, I realized that God is there for me. God got me through very difficult times. God watched over my husband, me and my kids like a protective father. Everyone seemed to do their worst to us, but God protected us. We had to let go of worldly things and put our trust in God. God is faithful.
I know that God is going to get me through this difficult time with my mom. I am thankful for this time with my mom. We don’t always get extra time with the ones we love. I pray that God helps me through this time. I am so thankful that my mom feels better. I pray that God gives us quality time together, that I can always cherish and hold close to my heart. God, will build us up, and never tear us down.
Thank you for a great surgery. Everything went well and was the best possible scenario. Thanking God for my mom’s positive attitude. I pray that God watches over my entire family. Praying for grace, kindness, peace end comfort in our hearts.