Today, my mom moves into an assisted living facility. I think she is ready to leave the hospital. I would be too, after almost a month! Today is Day 27 since my mom was taken to the hospital by ambulance. My mom’s diagnosis was sudden and unexpected. I have had a month to process it, yet it still surprises me. Writing about it has helped me to cope and identify my feelings. God has helped me get through these 27 days, with only a few breakdowns. Now, my mom will continue rehabilitation and possibly start chemotherapy. It is not over, it will just be different now.
When a family member gets sick, it can be emotional. Everybody deals with the diagnosis differently. Some people try to look at the positive side. Some people try to control every possible detail, so they feel in control, even though God is really in charge. Some people handle all the tasks that need to be done.
It was hard for me, because my mom was so far away. The drive to the hospital was 70-90 miles, depending on the route, and it took anywhere from 1.5 hours to 3 hours. Traffic was very hard to judge. My kids are 7 and 9 years old, so I still have to be home when they get home from school. People offered to watch my kids, but I just cannot ask someone to watch my kids for an 8 hour day. That is just too much. I just couldn’t go up there everyday. People can comment and say what they wish. As my sister-in-law said, just because I was not able to be there each day, that does not change the fact that I love my mom.
There will always be people who do not like me. There will be people who tell lies about me and try to destroy me. God knows my heart. God will look at these people and deal with them according to his will, not my own. I have to trust in God and let it all go, so God can handle it.
Therefore this is what the Lord, the God of Israel, says to the shepherds who tend my people: “Because you have scattered my flock and driven them away and have not bestowed care on them, I will bestow punishment on you for the evil you have done,” declares the Lord.
–Jeremiah 23:2 (NIV)
When people do their worst to me, God will protect me. God will give me peace, so I am no longer afraid. God won’t let any of my loved ones be lost or missing.
I will place shepherds over them who will tend them, and they will no longer be afraid or terrified, nor will any be missing,” declares the Lord.
–Jeremiah 23:4 (NIV)
My mom’s diagnosis surprised me. I am still trying to accept it. It is hard seeing my mom sick. It is hard to deal with my grief. I know that God is guiding me through this time of my life. I know that God will fight my battles in the spiritual realm. God will take care of all the unseen things.
Embrace This Beautiful Life 